FORGIVE

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Maia looked at Simon and smiled. She hoped his hunch was right. "I forgive God. I wish I had never said those things... I hope he forgives me."

"My dear Maia there has never been a time that God has needed to forgive you. It is always you who needs to forgive yourself."

"If that's true, how do I forgive myself?" 

"It's a complicated subject, and first you need to understand that First Source, our Creator, is also us. Imagine that First Source is alone in a univers of its mind —not a universe as we now have with planets and stars. In this meta-universe, First Source was like a single cell of consciousness and it divided itself into two cells. The first cell was the observer, the one who would watch its creation and learn from it. The second, the new cell, would divide into countless forms and experience dimensionality, or a field of vibration that was material, concrete, and steeped in polarity and separation. 

"This second cell is still connected to the first. They are one being, having the exact same constitution and genetic core, but because the second cell divided itself into a multitude of forms, in a multitude of vibrational realities, these forms evolved through spacetime with different perspectives, different capabilities,different outlooks, and different beliefs. In these differences, they further divided and separation was even more intensely felt.

"In this separation, within the second cell, humanity exists along with many other species and beings. But even within just our human family, this separation occurred again and again until we have people who are suspicious of anyone who looks or acts slightly different than they. And yet, in the cascade of separation, if you could roll everything back to its origins, we all come from the same source —First Source.  Each is First Source, albeit a tiny atom of its overall Self.

"Nevertheless, in this tiny atom of First Source, that you are... that I am... reside the truth of who we really are. It doesn't live or exist anywhere else. Now, the virtues of the heart, like understanding, compassion, and forgiveness, must operate from this perspective because without this perspective, or context, we really don't have understanding, we really can't appreciate the oneness that we all have. Without this, forgiveness is simply a concept that you can mechanically employ, and yes, it will have some positive effect, but it will only dampen the flames of blame and judgment, it will not transform these energies to the frequencies of love."

"In the context of who you really are, you can sense how you've drifted far afield of First Source, and in this incarnational drifting you inhabit realities where all is separate, locked in identities that reveal only a tiny portion of your divine nature, and from this fear unfolds. It is this fear that inhabits the vibrational reality of separation, and because of it, we slip on the prison suit every morning and exist in separation, manifesting separation, expressing separation, living separation."

"How does one change that reality?" 

Simon sighed. "You exist in separation, but you manifest oneness, and you do this by understanding what you really are, and then applying that understanding to everyone else. And you don't allow the picture of separation to override the underlying reality of oneness in terms of how you express your heart's intelligence."

Maia listened intently. "Why did First Source want to divide itself?"

"Creation out of loneliness is a powerful thing. Perhaps it wanted to create a multiverse where its material forms could interact and in this interaction expand the Presence of First Source into the ongoing expansion of spacetime. First Source would be the sustainer and watcher, but give the powers of creation to its other half, the Dimensionals."

"The Dimensionals?" 

"That's what I call anyone who's part of the second cell," Simon replied.

"So fear is the virus that's attacking the second cell, or at least making us less than what we are?" Maia asked.

"Among the Dimensionals are very powerful beings, including what our religious books have boldly, and, I might add, erroneously, called our Gods. The powerful beings have learned to respond to this fear differently, to be causal agents of it and facilitate its flow within the populations of Dimensionals. They have learned to feed off of it —to make it their all. In a sense, fear has become their engine, though they, themselves, remain bound to fear itself.

"This only makes the prison walls higher, but it does not make escape impossible. This is where you come in, my dear, you're a person on the game board who will create a passageway to First Source, at least for those who want to make the journey."

"But how would I do that?" Maia asked. "How would I make a door to First Source? It doesn't make sense. You would be a much better candidate to do that than I." 

"It isn't about knowledge or experience", Simon said. "It never has been. It's about the heart, and how its intelligence is tapped and then expressed through your dimensionality —not just your body. Words, gestures, and activities, yes, they're a part of it, but the lesser part of it. It has to do with the invisible part of you, the higher vibrational aspects, and those you cannot see with your eyes, and can only vaguely sense with your mind. But this is where the real potency lies".

"How do I make sure I'm using this power and not simply going through the mechanical steps?"

Simon nodded encouragingly at her question. "You make sure that your faith, your belief, is invested in the idea that life is intelligent, purposeful, agile, free, creative, undetermined, and eternally supported by First Source. The reality is that life will rearrange itself so as not to disappoint your faith. But the real issue is to know your faith deeply, to look into its eyes and truly understand what you believe and why you believe it."

"Nobody wants to know what they really are, do they?" Maia said.

"It isn't that they don't to want to know who they really are", Simon replied, "it's just that to peel back the layers, to discern the decoys, to pull away the masks, and to refuse the alluring promises of the charlatans... it's a demanding process when you're a Dimensional who's been domesticated in limitation since birth. The divine muscles are soft from disuse. Humanity wants to awaken, but the will to awaken has been systematically weakened".

"Do you truly believe that I can help strengthen this will in humanity? I don't have any training in any of this. I've never been a particularly good student. I'm a young, simple woman. I'm more comfortable with trees than I am with most people. How does any of this qualify me?"

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Simon's nostrils twitched. "I think the rain is on its way, so I'll keep my answer short. You just spoke of yourserlf in separation, not only separate from First Source, but also yourself." 

"Myself?" 

"Yes, you said you are one expression —this thing called Maia, but you're a collective of lives, experiences, and vibrational realities that are all synchronized in a symphony of your creation —happening right now. Your identity, as Maia, is one window into the room in which your larger Presence lives, but this room is very large, with hundreds of windows and each window brings a new light, new information into the room of your Presence. The Presence is different than the Dimensional, for the Presence is your First Source."

"I don't understand, Simon".

"Each person is their own First Source. Just as First Source divided itself into an Observer-Creator and a Dimensional-Experiencer, so has each of, but at a comparatively microscopic level. We mimic our Creator in more ways than most imagine, and this is but one example."

"Okay, so let's say I'm more than just this puny little wisp of a human. Then how do I  bring this Presence, as you call it, into my Dimensional self?"

"Only life itself can do this. But your life is one that will demand that the larger self —your Presence— steps forward."

"So life itself extracts this?"

Simon nodded. "Yes." 

"So I wait?"

 "Life is always calling you". 

"In what way?"

"Life constantly beckons you to engage with it using your heart's intelligence and the virtues therein, like forgiveness, compassion, understanding, humility, appreciation, and valor. Life is the partner to your development. It is not a passive observer, but rather it is your Presence entering your human consciousness, encouraging you to apply what you know —not the facts and recitations of your head

put there by others in your world, but the virtues you instinctively know in your heart. 

"How you respond to the Presence of Life determines the potency and depth of the Presence in your life." 

Maia lit up. 

"So if I chose to forgive, I would be activating this Presence, drawing it further into my Dimensional world. Is this what you're saying?"

Simon nodded. "Yes, but it must be when you can be authentic. Don't rush it, but don't ignore it either. It's a balance, and when your heart is ready, it'll announce its readiness, and when this happens, you will know."

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James Mahu, The Dohrman Prophecy